Teens Being Raped What Does An Adult Do When She Is Interested In Sex Roles Simular To Being Raped Three Time In Her Teens?

What does an adult do when she is interested in sex roles simular to being raped three time in her teens? - teens being raped

I was raped by friends and people I knew at an early age and was my first experience and now I have a sex life, I am sure I am looking for a partner who would argue that my primary experience. Is it wrong? It is normal for victims of rape? What could this mean and how can I solve it? I can not deal well with it. so bad, but I feel so very happy. If this is your friend and know nothing til 'now, how about you? Plz help me?